They've taken everything away, DS, iPod, Wii, PS3, and even DRAWING. WHAT THE HAGSMIRE. Their reasons are "I'm not active enough", "I need experience", "I need "FREE TIME"", "I need to spend summer the way I want". Guess what? THAT IS MY FREE TIME. WHAT I WANT TO DO IS VIDEO GAMES. I COULDNT DURING SCHOOL, SO NOW YOUR LIMITING ME ON TIME I PLAY TO ONLY 2 HOURS A DAY, AND NOW YOU TAKE IT AWAY ALL TOGETHER? WHAT THE HAGSMIRE IS WRONG WITH YOU? I'M MORE ACTIVE THAN BOTH OF YOU COMBINED. YOU TELL ME, YET YOU GO AND SIT ON YOUR LAZY BUTTS ALL DAY, ON YOUR PHONES AND WATCHING TV. You even took away my DRAWING. Thats what I like to do, its about the only thing I CAN do. I suck at sports, I suck at mkeeting new people, I suck at just about everything BUT drawing and electronics. You just don't understand me, you don't understand anything but what YOU like to do. They say I need to spend time outside, when they aren't even home until around dark because of work and errands, and they say I cant go outside without anyone home. I'm not a kid anymore, I can take care of myself. FOR GOD'S SAKE, I COULD LIVE ON MY OWN, NO PROBLEM. I can't go outside at night because I cant see and scorpions, snakes, and all that junk. Why cant you understand THIS IS HOW I LIKE TO SPEND MY TIME. I CANT DO ANYTHING ELSE BECAUSE YOU RESTRICT ME OR I JUST CANT DO IT. And now you're even taking away what I do best, drawing. You say it's too distracting, and that its whats causing my inactiveness. I CANT BE ACTIVE BECAUSE OF YOU AND MY STUPID KNEE PROBLEMS. And when the weekend finally comes around, you like to tell me how I spend too much time inside, and not enough outside. GUESS WHAT? YOU DO TOO. I wish the world would just leave me alone, let me do as I please. YOU CAN, SO WHY CANT I?! I hate how my parents yell at me, and when I stand up for myself they just say, "Well, you're not the adult here." AGE DOESNT MATTER! I should be able to do most anything you do. Its just not fair. Just, seriously. Drawing and gaming are some of my only talents. I wish you would let me do one thing without scolding me about it, saying I'm doing everything wrong, and that I need to change my habits, and actually let me do something about it without you just giving me your little "Age speach" and how I have no authority over no one. You always make by best days into my nightmares. Actually, I'd prefer to have nighmares every time I seep that listen to you fight with me almost evey day about the stupidest things. You're saying I need to READ AND WRITE MROE. My reading level is college, and I write better than you ever could. I'd like to see you try and do the things I do. I just love how you always do the exact opposite of what you tell me to do. I wish you would just leave me to do whatever I want, only interfering when you need to. You say summer is supposed to be full of doing stuff I want, enjoying life. THIS IS HOW I ENJOY MY LIFE, CONSIDERING YOU DONT LET ME DO THE STUFF I WANT TO. YOU EVEN USE MY MONEY, SAYING YOU'LL REPAY ME WHEN I WANT SOMETHING. Then you say what I want is pointless, and that I should use my money on something more important. What, exactly? Stuff that you want me to have? I DONT WANT ALL YOUR PROBLEMS. I have my interests, you have yours. Why can't you just understand, video games and drawing is what makes me happy. And when I actually get the chance to something, you go ahead and ruin it by making me do something else. Maybe if you'd actually let me do something in my life, I'd actually WANT to spend time with you and actually LISTEN to what you have to say. You dont listen, I dont listen. My god, my ANIMALS understand me better than you do. FRIENDS understand me better than you do. When you actually "support" my artistic talent, you dont even care when I make something totally amazing. You just say, "That's great! You should do this more often." THATS WHAT IVE BEEN DOING. AND NOW YOUR TAKING IT AWAY. You never take me to do fun stuff. For example, for the last 4 years you've been taking trips to Hawaii, you don't even BOTHER to bring me, let alone think of me at all. You just throw me somewhere I dont want to go for a week or two, while you guys enjoy yourselves. How do you think I feel? Then you come back and tell me that you had such a great time, not even caring that my time was boring or terrible. When I say I need help, or my knee is having problems, you snap at me to stop complaning and tell me I'm faking it now. I'm really not, I really do have problems with it. Then you say, "I want to spend time with you, because I feel if we dont now, we wont ever in the future." And when I turn down your offers, you MAKE me. If you give me a choice, expect a response. Its not your world, I'm not your puppet. You tell me I need to "make memories", and actually "do something with my life". You cant tell me to do something and not do it yourself. You dont know how hard it is for me, having to stay on top of school and life's issues. You never care now when I'm in pain, unless I'm in tears. Even then, you barely care, trying to comfort me and then ask why I'm so sad, and when I tell you the issue, you go and scold me for "faking" my sadness. And when I say it's because of Coco, you tell me "That was years ago. Get over it." You don't know how hard that was for me. He was my joy. And what did you do when he died on Christmas? Put his body in the garage and dont even care to tell me that he died until much later. You only cared when you saw how sad I was, and how much despair I was in. Only then did you decide to help me, bury him and comfort me. Now when I have terrible nighmares, you tell me to suck it up and that it was only a dream. You dont care much, do you. You dont understand me, you dont know why I'm always angry towards you because you ignore the fact that you always dump your issues on me, and not even care for mine. I mean seriously, taking away DRAWING is just too much! What's next, take away everyhing I hold dearest? You just like to get my spirits up, AND FORCE ME BACK DOWN. You overreact to every little thing I do wrong. Just..... why won't you leave me alone. I just don't get it.
Thanks for listening to me, guys. Your support could really mean alot to me right now~ I wish my talents werent so wasted.
I just wish I was a little more appreciated for my abilities. I'm almost never praised with sincerity.... I bet none of you really care about me. If you did, I just wish you would show it....
Sorry for wasting you time again. I'm just..... lost.
(Yep, I'm as nerdy as I sound too.